For as long as I can remember, I have enjoyed people watching. I have been enthralled with being witness to humans in their everyday lives, how they behave, how they respond, how they act, the choices they make, the words the speak – especially when they are blissfully unaware that someone is paying attention. It is at those times that I am able to truly see who they are at the core because when humans are in their “own world” and are oblivious to other humans, they behave in accordance with their core values. It is quite revealing.
The thing is, there is a lot of time spent on this planet when humans can believe they are not being watched and, therefore, default to their true nature. If you take into consideration that we spend 1/3 of our time every day being asleep, then you can see that just with that time alone, there is a significant chunk of time that we are not on display for other humans. We are asleep, in the realm of dreams and the unconscious. In this space, we are free of the limitations of being human and our soul soars to other dimensions, while our physical vehicle rests. For eight hours of every day, we are not human and our body is left to its own devices and our faces take on the expression of our dominant emotions and thoughts.
If you have ever watched a small baby sleep, then you can understand the theory I am speaking of here. Often, babies smile in their sleep long before they smile in their waking hours. Their muscles innately know how to express joy without their conscious minds knowing how to make that happen when they are awake. There is too much going on while they are awake for a smile to form when they are tiny – they are busy growing and becoming accustomed to this crazy new world in which they find themselves. However, when they sleep, when their soul is traveling, the face of their human body – their vehicle – will reflect all that is going on within them and they smile, they giggle, and they grimace.
One of the aspects of humans that has always intrigued me was the human faces and the stories they wear on the surface there. The lines in their skin become deep grooves, their “favorite” state of being given away by the way the lines curve and flow. Even if they seem to be happy on the surface, their true nature is evident in those lines because their dominant expression is unchecked for eight hours every day while they sleep, in addition to all the moments throughout the day that they are going about their lives unaware of the presence of other humans.
When we are asleep, our conscious mind goes offline and the subconscious kicks in. When the subconscious mind is running the show – keeping in mind that our subconscious brain occupies about 80% of our brain’s capacity – it will reflect to us what is truly going on inside us. It will reveal to us what our conscious brain has been feeding it. It will reveal to us what we have been ignoring, what we have been running away from, what we have been focusing on. It will shape our faces into the masks we wear in our waking hours.
As a body-centered energy healer, I am able to examine the expressions of humans and understand a myriad of things about their existence. Abuse, anger, grief, pain, disorder, disease, joy, love, and many other emotions and states of being reveal themselves in the lines etched into the skin. When a human has masked their inner world with a facade of happiness, their face literally becomes the easily recognized symbol of theatre: Comedy and Tragedy.
When I work with clients, the mask they wear begins to crack and the truth of what is going on inside them begins to emerge. Although, their mask has already told me what truths will reveal because the lines of the mask tends to match the creases in their inner world, instead of the false front they put forth. Often humans choose false happiness for the filter of their life, but that happiness never evolves to joy, nor does it shine forth through the thick mask of anger or hate or sadness that they wear.
And so, I watch and I study the faces and I wonder… what has that human gone through that has created those lines?
As I approach the half-century mark of existence on this planet, I am growing evermore aware of the masks worn by humans. The other day, while I was hanging out with my daughter who chooses to be joyful more often than not, I noticed a woman – I guessed her to be around 70, but I cannot be sure because I have never been an accurate guesser of ages – whose mask was heavily lined with grooves that made it look as though her entire face had been pulled downward in a grimace for her entire life. Even though, at that moment, she was smiling, her mask was so etched in the opposite emotions that it made her smile seem almost garish. I studied her face and felt the energy of abject grief – most of which was not hers and therefore incredibly toxic – emanating off her with such force that I wanted to run away.
Concerned, I said quietly to my daughter who was also observing the woman, “When I grow old, I hope that my face reflects joyfully into the world. I feel so sad when I look at her face.”
My daughter nodded and said, “Me too. I cannot imagine what she has gone through to create those lines. However, Momma, when I look at your face, I see lines that show you have clearly smiled and loved a lot.”
In looking at my face in the mirror each morning, I have come to appreciate the lines that show the story of my life. It hasn’t always been rosy; in fact, some of my life has been spent in the darkest darkness of Hell. However, I have lived to tell about it. I have walked with Lucifer and have come out shining and Light. I have chosen the darkness I have chosen because I desire the ability to decode abuse so I can be part of the Lightworkers who are banding together to eradicate abuse from this planet, from the human race. Even in my darkest times, I have chosen to lean into the Light and to look for Love. I have chosen to be Love, be Light, be Joy.
By choosing to be Love, Light, and Joy, I have a compass that directs me to those energies. This does not mean that I do not feel grief, anger, and rage, because I do experience those emotional states and many other heavy energies. What it means is that while I am in that heaviness, I choose to experience it in the lightest way possible. I CHOOSE to look for the Light and Love in the situation so that I can move through the emotion with the least amount of stickiness. I choose to be with the heavy emotions, experience them, and move through them rather than taking up residency and staking a claim within the realm of darkness. I choose to lean into the Light. Therefore, when I am resting and my conscious brain has gone offline, my subconscious kicks on, revealing the choices I have made to focus on Love, Light, and Joy so many times that it is now ingrained in my subconscious and my face is at peace.
This peacefulness has created a mask of calm joyfulness, the lines reflecting my deepest inner state: Love, Light, and Joy.
What do the lines of your face tell you about the choices you have made, which has formed the deepest truths of you?
