Slowly, I wake to find a world cleansed by ongoing rains, all fresh and new. Outside my window, the sky is pinks and purples, glowing through a grove of aspen trees and below, I see the horses roaming the property. I feel so blessed.
Yesterday was a tough day, filled with emotions and tears that wanted to flow, but wouldn’t. A lot of awarenesses about thought processes and beliefs that I have been sneakily running under the radar so that even I didn’t know they were there. Subtle programs with huge, destructive outcomes.
Last night, as I was journaling about my experiences of that day, I was listening to my pandora.com station that I call “Easy Listening.” I’ve been listening to this station a lot lately because of the gentle music that’s on it – old classics, New Age and only the flowing music of today. I wasn’t paying much attention to what was quietly coming out of my computer until these words caught my attention:
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down.
‘Cause it’s the world I know.
It’s the world I know.
I stopped moving. I stopped breathing. I stopped writing. I just sat there and let the lyrics of Collective Souls’ The World I Know wash over me until I inhaled deeply and began to cry. Because I had such a strong reaction to the lyrics, I chose to research them:
The World I Know
Collective Soul
Has our conscience shown?
Has the sweet breeze blown?
Has all the kindness gone?
Hope still lingers on.
I drink myself of newfound pity
Sitting alone in New York City
And I don’t know why.
Are we listening
To hymns of offering?
Have we eyes to see
That love is gathering?
All the words that I’ve been reading
Have now started the act of bleeding
Into one.
So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below.
And I laugh at myself
As the tears roll down.
‘Cause it’s the world I know.
It’s the world I know.
The World I Know lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc., Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
The lyrics intrigued me, so I went to YouTube to find the video (The World I Know) and that was when the dam broke. In the video, the man opens his eyes at one point and glances down to see a colony of ants busily going about their day. It was a strangely familiar experience to witness – one which I could relate to all too well.
As I delve deeper and deeper into me and willingly learn about the patterns and programs I am living, as well as any ancient programing in my DNA – programing that has been held onto for generation upon generation that is now embedded in the human consciousness, waiting to be released – I have noticed that the smallest details are coming into view. Suddenly, high atop this mountain in Colorado, I am aware of the fluttering of each leaf, the sound of the animals and the movement of the insects upon the ground.
When I woke this morning, I awoke with a sensation of “Yes! Let’s get on with this!” The melody of The World I Know was running through my head and I was actually humming along. This song has always soothed me, but I’ve never paid attention to the lyrics. I’ve simply let them pour over me like a healing balm, while relishing in the sound of the music. Until last night.
I stopped and listened to it in my head. I wanted to hear the whole thing as Collective Souls sings it. I opened my computer and was going to go straight to YouTube to listen to it, but felt prompted to go to pandora instead. Clicking on my Easy Listening station, the music started playing, but it was a song that didn’t match the reverence of my mood, so I skipped it. The next song to come on was The World I Know. I smiled. Of course it comes on!
I listened closely, the sound of Ed Roland’s voice bathing me in richness. My body tingled and I closed my eyes. I remembered the images of the video and the tears began again. The process the man goes through in that video is where I am. I have followed in his footsteps, going to the brink and feeling the huge waves of emotions that are coursing through this planet. Although I have never gone as far as climbing up a fire escape, I have felt that intensity of emotions and body sensations for the world I know.
As an empath, it has taken quite some time for me to be able to distinguish and understand the difference between my experience and that of the collective. I am able to feel the emotions of the world and, at times, that has been confusing, overwhelming and downright scary.
This process that I am is for me. I am cleansing me because that is where each of us needs to start. It is a process to heal from within, release everything that no longer serves me, being clear about who I want in my realm and who I do not. It is a process of releasing myself from the bondage of age-old chains and allowing myself to wake up to the beauty that I Am.
The world I know is changing because I am changing and, although it is new, I do laugh as the tears roll down. Because this new world that I now know is beautiful beyond belief!
