Like JulieAnn outted about herself in her email reply when Fairy busted out with this week’s Talk Thursday topic, I heard Cher belting out a passionate love-gone-wrong anthem in her oh-so-recognizable, sexy, throaty vibrato, all the while clad in some edging-on-inappropriately-revealing outfit … If I Could Turn Back Tie-emm…
http://www.youtube.com/v/5G4O5AMSevc&rel=0&color1=0x402061&color2=0x9461ca&border=1(I don’t care what any of you say! She is one fucking hot broad – plastic, nipped, knifed and wrapped or not, she is amazing!)
I was curious about my own thoughts and feelings on this particular subject – once the concert finished and Cher took her bow. I got really silent and just sat there. Waiting.
I got nothin.
In that silent stillness, I realized that nothing would come, no matter how long I waited.
I am tired of fruitlessly attempting to turn back time. I am exhausted by the endeavor of living in the past and wondering why that goddamn ghost of once was does not materialize into something real.
I have gotten a taste – all salty and sweet and gritty – of what it is like to actually live in the now. To actually put behind me that which is that… behind me. I have experienced what it is like to long to go back and then realizing that that longing is a futile endeavor and a big waste of my precious energy. And while this is all so very new to me, this being present, I am clear that going forward is all I want to do.
I know longer wish to turn back tie-emm. That was then and it was good, then. It is what has made me who I am today. It is me.
So in honor of where I am… Right Here, Right Now!
http://www.youtube.com/v/QtYBQXIeLRw&rel=1
